(In)visible childlessness is an online gallery for the creative expression of how it feels to be childless not by choice. As well as a supportive place to make the grief visible and to further develop the childless community’s voice.


I hope it to be a safe place where childless people can belong and connect, through expressions of the bumpy process of childless grief, as well as the process of moving onto the next part of our lives.

(In)visible childlessness is curated by Andy Harrod. I am sadly childless not by choice. The trying for a family and the attempts to come to terms with it not going to happen for us, has overwhelmed the first ten years of our marriage. There is a lot more to the story of those ten years, including many happy experiences, but our lost children are the dominant theme. I am in process with accepting we will not have our children and embracing my life as it is.

For a long time I suffered with my childless grief, through avoiding being with it, despite it loud and incessant knocking on my heart. In the main because I was ashamed, viewing myself as a failure, as less than a Man. Due to this shame and accompanying avoidance I lived a life through masks, fearful of attaching in case I received further hurt, fearful of making meaning, of having purpose. I was a shell, empty and disappearing.

I was also more than that, for there were many moments of being with the grief, of working through not only our losses, but also the aspects of me my grief hooked into. Behind the masks there was a part of me fighting for me, and that part is growing as I try and accept I matter, with or without children. I am currently in the process of shifting how I view my childlessness and how it impacts on my sense of self. Moving away from narratives of failure and self-criticism to embracing self-compassion and an acceptance we did all we could and sadly that was not enough. I am removing the masks.

My writing and art about being childless not by choice are spread throughout The Gallery. These and other moments of creative expression, are the reasons why I have set up (In)visible childlessness. I hope others will join me here, by showing their expressions of what being childless not by choice means to them. You are welcome to submit your writing, art, photography, videos or music, please see the Submissions guidance for further information. Any questions, reactions or if you just like to say hello, you are very welcome to contact me.